.Friday, September 3 ' 8:57 AM Y
tmr i'm going to malaysia. will be back only by monday evening. it's been quite some while since i went there.
anyway, i also dont wanna be like this. but things seems to been damn fucking sensitive to me. i fall down hard once. i wont let myself to fall down again, things to repeat again, everything. maybe you can say i'm selfish. but all i wanna to do is protect myself from those rubbish and nonsense you gave me last time.
frankly speaking, i've a choice to make whether to go tmr or not. i know you asked me to go prawning tmr with your gugu they all. but to me now, i need a rest from those rubbish shit and have a break. and wanna visit my grandfather, as my mother said he might only have numerous days left. so i went.
i wanna trust you. but something seems to be there to block me. when you say you miss me, i doubting.
how i wish, i could do everything that i cant do now.
anyway, days which i'm not by your side, drink more water, hungry must go down and buy things eat. dont lazy or play game till you forget. at night dont open your mouth and sleep. cover blanket and sleep.
& a picture for you ...
i love youuuuu
tmr i'm going to malaysia. will be back only by monday evening. it's been quite some while since i went there. 
