it's lovee;

.Tuesday, April 27 ' 7:28 PM Y

i've the urge to talk to you.
why do i have this urge. do you have it too?
have i ever cross your mind after that?
is it good stuffs or bad stuffs?
*thinking hard* -> bad stuffs.

i've have been fucking attitude these few days.
and i cant get to know why.
just a little tiny stuff, i will getting freaking pissed off.
sign of depression? ._.! nope??

whenever we got into a fight, after that, i will regret what i've said. like now.
after each fight, i feel freaking hell sad, disappointed; like i'm having hell depression!
hell thinking lots of stuffs, questioning myself, telling myself, and blah stuffs.
just like a girl from mental hospital.
i dont want that! x'c

i've

low self-esteem

low confidence

i dont feel good being myself

i feel i'm sucks at all times

i dont even love myself

that makes me think alot why you wanna be with me.

W.H.Y?

i'm not pretty or whatsoever.

what makes you be with me?

each time, is it too late to regret or not?
at times i wonder, "why do i even bother" when you dont.
it's like i'm all alone at the situation.

not talking to each other for the night or even whole day, you might be fine or even okay with it.

but do you think i'm okay or fine with it?

like my friend's msn nick:

"I dropped a tear in the ocean. The day you find it is the day I will stop missing you."

maybe it's right. maybe this sentence applies to you.

there so much question in my mind now. that might not be even solved.

i feel freaking insecure now.

hugs wont make me feel better.

is the answer that might make me feel better.

so when will it be the time?

& thinking what will be the next hurting words you'll say after you see this post? or not even a single things? :/

._.

If I were blue, would you be there for me,
And whisper in my ears that's okay.
Would you stand by me, let me hold you tight,
And say you love me one more time.

If I feel good, would you slow dance with me,
And touch my lips with tender loving care,
Would you die for me, would you run with me,
And never look back..

If I will wait, would you still think of me,
And wished that you could hold me now.
Would you die for me, would you run with me,
All the way..

Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?

Would you be there to save my soul tonight?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,
to take my breath away

& to kiss my pain away..

Would you be there?
For me..

i just wanna get your attention on me, baby.

WHAT'S ON YOUR MIND?

loved

.Thursday, April 22 ' 4:51 AM Y

lessons in school was HELL BORING. and making me sleepy. so that leads me to, PON LESSON:D.

baby came to fetch me to school today. went to have "breakfast & lunch" at campus haven. the food there kinda sucks right now. :/. then decided to pon lesson and went home with baby. was freaking tired till i didnt help my baby to massage. LOLS. and he say i'm give excuses. :( soooo badddddd~ next time hahs, next time. :D

I'M SO GONNA WATCH REC 2! "D

believe in eternity love?

i do, cause of you.

loved

.Tuesday, April 20 ' 4:31 AM Y

Twinkle twinkle! I love you! :D

today skipped PE in the morning, caused its at 8! hell man. i couldnt wake up. LOLS. went for 2 lesson at 9.30. then baby came to look for me at cafe2. he sang two songs for me! "Twinkle Twinkle Little Star" & "I Love You" (Barney's song). hahahs! he was singing at my ear there. make me feel itchy and laughed like hell. he got to repeat the song number of times cause he keep laughing too. :D

after school, he asked to tell him what he wanna to hear. of cos, by that time, i told him:D I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU. :D (you gonna sing another 3 times for me alr! hahas! kidding ;P)

for today, i drew this on msn ... :D

OUR PIG HOUSE! :D

loved

.Monday, April 19 ' 4:22 AM Y

HAPPPPPYYY DAY :)!

why? today, my CA was on mc. and today having lesson with her for fcuking long hours. guess what. her lesson was cancel and early release for practical! HAHAHAHAS. happy man. or else school gonna end at 6! ;)

lunch with baby. playing with his haior while he is having his lunch. LOLS. and this :

hahas! cute hahs, like two devil horn. idea:D

after school, cafe1 with baby and he sent me home. sweety him♥ :) then while waiting for him to reach home. went to bath and have dinner. after that, msn with him. hahas, and i drew my dinner out for him to see on msn. :D cute right. part of it.

my cute lil rice:D and i still drew some chicken wing, prawns, fish, soup, drinks. LOLS! my prawn looks like crab, my chicken wing looks like fish. LOLS! some "good" comments from my baby boy hahs. nevermind. as long as it will makes you smile can alr. :) & yes, It's a endless love or even everlasting love in between us.

tmr school @ 8! fcuking god! first period, PE somemore! i feel like skipping!! :(!

loved

.Sunday, April 18 ' 11:25 PM Y

~~she sick and fucked up with her life.~~

~~she feels like ending it.~~

SHE'S LOVING IT! with you around ♥

loved

.Wednesday, April 14 ' 7:27 PM Y

color splash violin Pictures, Images and Photos

after saying everything out. i felt so relieved. Finally, everything was fine. & i hope it will.

anyway, days @ school was HELL BORING. attending the bloody orientation. doing all the stupid games, listening to those sickening talks and blah shits. making me regret of going back to school. but then, there were you all guys around & of cos my baby, it makes everything better. :)

today, after school, cab home with baby. and watched movie. was rather tired :/. after that, bathed and baby took bus to hougang to have his teeth done. while i took bus home. then, the highway was jam. due to some accident at the front. took more than 10mins to get out of the jam. whole journey took 1 hour!

reached home, bathed, playing games on fb, chatting with baby, dinner and now blogging. I'M FREAKING TIRED. but ... tmr school start @ 11 only! YEAH! sleep sleep sleep sleep! :)

just love having pig husband of mine :)

& after eating with his BIGGG stomach, he's sleeping now.

PIG! (oo)

loved

.Saturday, April 10 ' 9:19 AM Y

differences???? hahahas, yes, i'm back to bangsxzxz again. :D. baby wanna me go cut bangs. he say it's nicer. so go cut lors. for your sake, although i dont really like bangs, i will cut for you. :)

going back to school on mon. sians~ no more late nights and late good "morning" to me. now, i wanna have more holidays man. :(

i keep telling myself
"remember what you've said!"
but i cant do it.
it sucks alot, really.
spoil my mood. ==.

loved

.Friday, April 9 ' 11:21 PM Y

we fall down hard but stand up stronger together again.

like what you said,

"I wont care about the past only for our future."

yeah, i will too. :)

remember what you've said.

yours truely wanna to be inside the Underwater World hahs.

i wanna the Sharks, Whales & Stingray all those be there too.

i want every Marine Creatures to be there! :D

inside the submarine also can lars.

i dont mind ;)

waken up to see that everything is okay.

the first time in my life and now is so great.

slow down and look around and i'm so amaze.

and i think about the little things that make life great.

this is the best feeling.

everything will just be perfect with you beside me.

every single Imperfect ones will also become the PERFECT ones.

loved

.Tuesday, April 6 ' 9:16 PM Y

maybe i'm not the one whose wing is getting stronger. its yours.

i'm sorry that i disturb you.
i think i wont le bahs.
i wont anymore.

every pain i got, makes me think alot.
makes me think of the foolish things i do for you, just wanna make you happy and show me the smile i always wanna see.
but i think, it wont be happening anymore. no smile from your face just for me i think.

i'm too tired to explain or even tell you why i act like this.
i've alr told you last few weeks ago or not even once.
i'm very sensitive.
that's all.
from now on, i'm not going to explain further anymore. i'm very tired alr.
if loving you would lead us to tough journey. i rather give you the happiness to let you go.

i think you would enjoy life like today without anyone to nag at you when you're out or even playing game. peaceful life right.

afterall, i'm just an ordinary girl who just need someone to love, care and pamper. be there whenever i need someone, giving surprises to make me smile even if i'm down. accompany me to walk through every tough moments with me without me saying it. be the very special ones in my life. thats all. is it very difficult? i think so. that's why i'm such a failure in relationship.

like now you've said, you wont cry anymore. i'm happy for you. dont let the sadness surround you. let the do the jobs for you.

talk no more. leave it to fate. what's mine will be mine. if fated that its not mine, no matter how hard i try and cry, at the end it wont be mine.

i'm just a bad person

forever, no one appreciate what i've done for them. i'm tired.

loved

.Monday, April 5 ' 10:33 PM Y

就算我们之间有什么难题
黑夜我还想着你
心碎人孤寂虽然我愿意
心还想着你
再让我靠近你轻轻对你说
当我说我要你从此好好过
是真的否则我怎么肯放手

i miss you so.

you?

loved

. ' 12:24 AM Y

i'm coughing my lungs out alr.

what's more. having slight fever and headache now.

whole day sleep, eat, watch tv. :/

and i cant sleep now! x'c

i think i needa cold towel & my blankety now~

hais, i hate the fact that. i love you more than you do.
but what else. you said those words.
really...
it hurts more than you ever expect.
i think i really think hard about us.

loved

.Friday, April 2 ' 12:23 AM Y

Here to update some late pictures. :)

& then ...

♥BABY! ;D

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