your heart is numb.
will your feeling be numb too?

sad to say, my heart wasnt numb at all.
maybe im just the one getting us tgt. how about you? are you doing the same? maybe you will just say, "oh? yeah? fine."

things you say just now on the phone was hurting. but i still try to get back into the conversation. but i failed. asking you repeatedly, and the answer is still the same. maybe the words you said, was just too hurting that i hang the phone.

the things you said will be true?

there goes my off day~

today got my interview for Higher Nitec. morning i woke up late, was like rushing like mad woman. god~ in the end, when i reached my house de bus stop, called everyone. they were either, in the train or at home only~ woah! im the earliest one! LOL! waited for wy and stella at tenah merah and bus2 to school.

went to function hall for the interview, met baby awhile. i got the teacher whom i pray hard not to get. in the end i tio her, how lucky can i be. :/! she sucks man! then cafe 2 for lunch with the girls. BAN MIAN FOR LUNCH! baby came to find me:) then baby pei me walk to campus haven cause i dont want to walk alone to find the girls:D thanks baby! pei our meilien to have her lunch done:D some picture taken! :)

then bus with stella and wy to bedok. while stella took mrt, me and wy went to have our hair-do done. walked there, gonna melted alr. went there, wy got her hair cut, washed and blw-ed. while i got my hair reborn and cut. for mine, not much different. while wy change her parting to center. nice can! :)

pei her walked to bus stop, and i walked home. baby pei me chatted on the phone. reached home, got my dinner and webby with baby. showing funny faces and suddenly, i think of doing this ...

HAHAHAS! baby say i si bei keyan. LOLS! and he call me took a picture of it. LOLS! ohmy~ i think yesterday must be something wrong with my brain, thats why i will do lots of stupid actions infront of the webcam. LOLS!

guys nowadays just can be so thick skin, think that they're that handsome to use a vehicle to honk you or even stareeee at you. ohmyfuckinggod!

been through lots of up and down.
and we've gone through all obstacles infront of us.
and i believe we're getting better and stronger in our relationship.
i just love the way you're, baby:)

yes, i will.
i will cherish till its gone from my life..

i've a nice dream but will come true? will it?

dear life,

have been staring blankly at the ceiling tt moment.
thinking and thinking,
why have we've become like this after that matter happened. reading your last time post. i really miss those times. do you still need me like before? what have been happening to us? i've been questioning myself repeatly.

no ones truely unds how i feel right now. am i acting like a fool? or am i stupid. loving someone with my whole heart needs to carry that load of heartaches? or just myself being a fool believe-ing it.

when could i ever stop crying........

went to find baby:D before that, was like .... about the cab thing. after that, was alright. dead bodies again~ LOL! then, then something happened, heng im clever enough to bring it with me. phew~ then help baby put clay mask. lol! damn funny can. and he's trying to act one "zhong feng".


lol! he said so. he's like a model. LOLS! with tt hair style hahs! hahas! then went to sleep. guess what. bad dreams again. again and again. fish sia. heng, the alarm rang and i woke up. get prepared and went to bugis to have our dinner.

food court for my kimchi rice & baby got his pepper lunch. *thumbs up high for my kimchi rice* then went to see baby's stuffs. and actually wanna take neoprint one, due to someone'ssssssssss piiiiiimmmmpleeeees. we nvr take >x/. then walked around, window shopping. and found one shoes damn cute can. gonna buy it! ;)

then went to toast box to have baby's french toast. mac for his coke after that. now then i know mac got extra small coke for $1 sia. LOLS! i thought the smallest size is only small. but still got extra small sia. LOLS! then baby pei me take bus 2 back and he took 31 back after that.

gonna wait till next week then can meet my boy. BOOOORRRREEEEEDDDDD~ :(

went back to school today to apply my higher nitec. cab over, due to laziness. met baby at the enterance there. while walking to CVC, baby saw bouncer, and we went to noods. have the saugages again. kinda sucks right now. :/ then back to CVC. do all those computer work and i'm done. Interview on 26Jan. woah~ pray hard, i'm qualify for it. if not, im gonna start work alr. no more student fare for transport! ohhh! sucks.. Tampines alone after that, while baby went back for his lesson.

reached home, kinda bored. so paint-ed my that wardrobe. with my painting skill, the wardrobe look so much better! ;)! better than before:) then face mask after that:D

anyway, BALL GAMES SUCKS CAN! >:/

maybe thats the reason that leads to the temptation.

last sat, went to relative house. had been a long time since i saw them. before that, baby came just to fetch me. ;) met him at simei and bus tgt while i went to relative house, he U-turn back.

reached there, saw this slipper. so wear it. LOLS. ^^

then chit chatted, ate my dinner. reached home at 12 plus. :)

&&&&&& for yesterday,

baby came to fetch me again. ;)! and he say he wanna go expo to see John Little Mega sales, so went with him. at the end, dont have the things he want. so changed plan, wanna go tampines. guess what. we from expo walked all the way to our school there. at traffic light there, we changed our plan again, to 85 and eat. LOLS! so bus down. went there, the place is packed with people. waited for awhile then got place to seat. ordered, and the noodle need around 45mins to 1 hour. so we got our satay and chicken wing. & the noodle arrived. baby's one not nice, as he ordered the dry one. eeek! sticky one. while i got my soup one. *thumbs up*

after that, went to playground and slacked awhile. *save it for thurs hahs! wink;)* and he sent me home:D

can we have every night spent like yesterday?

days at work were either too slack or too busy. nth much to blog. just wanna say, customer sucks! :/ i'm still awake at this time when i have to wake up early tmr. ==!

i've got no confident in myself, even in relationship.
nights staring at the celing thinking and thinking,
worrying and worrying.
crying and crying.
just cant even think of a way to tell myself that i can do it.
maybe, I am just what i'm thinking. a person who has full of imperfections.

met baby just now and he pei-ed me go Tampines to cancel my ATM card. then bus to school and get my result slip and report book. before that, went to Noods to have the saugages while baby have the rice, wedges and fish. then billard and then went to find meilien! it had been a long time since i last saw her. "You gonna stay strong ya? :)"

then bus tgt with baby. dropped down at parkway, while he took to boon keng to find his friend. Tomyam steamboat for lunch *full* thennnn SHOPPPPPINGGGGGG! brought one dress and short pant. MOREEEEE MOREEEEE MOREEEE! coming up :D & i saw kimhoe. sis was like looking at me with the weird face, and i turn, kimhoe looking at me shaking head. LOLS! sis told me say, he called me afew times, but i didnt heard him. LOLS! cab home after that.

TIREDDDDD! needa go back to work tmr. :'( cant meet baby till next week i guess. GOSH! how am i gonna survived! :'(

went to find baby in the morning. slacked till evening, he's forever sleeping with the dead bodies. ^^. then bathed and sleep. then something happened! is like WTF MAN! omg.. then went out to plaza sing to catch a movie. mrt over.

then went to pizzahut to eat. rushed up for our movie. ended, went down to buy my nose stud. guess what. i then found out i lost my wallet. fuck it. went up to find cant find. fish sia! then there goes my gucci wallet lars! with all my IC and blah stuffs inside. curse that person sia! walked halfway, drop inside the drain, then cross the road, kana bang by car, cross the over-head bridge, fall down from the top and of course, climb up the stairs, fall down till go hospital. fuck it man!

after that, baby pei me go bedok HQ to report. thanks baby. if you're not around, i also dont know what to do. love you :)

daily routine, work work work. &&& i got myself dress in blue today. blue shirt, blue short jean, blue slipper. wad a blue day man~

today Jade, my part-time mother was on MC. so work late. & Joan started her IA today. so got someone to pei me talk craps and stuffs. not much customers today. taught her how to do opening and closing & help to check the stocks. time fly pass damn fast. then it starts to slow down once it reaches evening time.

then, baby pei me chat till i get home. so nice of him:) we shall stay like this in every conversation we had hahs. :) then had my dinner, bathed and chose the colour i wanna to have on my room wall. i chose, ROSE RED & GREY. love it man. :D mother also say not bad. ^^ cant wait!

anyway, i cant wait to meet my dear baby boy next week. still so long. still got how many countless days sia! :(

bad dreams.

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