it's lovee;

.Sunday, November 29 ' 4:43 AM Y

TMR is my eoy exam. Hope whoever is taking the exam this coming week, can make it and score well for it.

as for me, i'm struggling with my studies now now now now! i'm gonna cry for that. :'c

i cant concenrate much. i hope things would be alright.

& baby dont it feel like i'm all alone

who's gonna be there after the last angel has flown

& i've lost my way back home

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.Friday, November 27 ' 7:30 AM Y

我是幸福的小女孩!♥

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.Wednesday, November 25 ' 3:15 AM Y

cracking my brain for updates~

school were rather boring these few days. :/ though i was in school today, but i didnt even qo for one lesson. LOLS! morning staying inside the library to study. study ends up talking about our teeth! LOLS!

my ankle kinda pain due to last fri my ankle got sprained. baby's house nearby got one chinese clinic. so cab over to his house first. then went down at 3. the doctor say my leg damn cold, its abnormal. its like ..... wtf. and my nose stud drop there. no-where to be found. LOLS! anyway, fcuking expensive can. $46 with just one bottle of medicine without bandage on my leg. baby and i was shocked for that. LOLS! &&& the medicine fcuk disgusting. taste sour man! +o(

bus home @ 4 plus. slow walk home. :)

anyway,
Happy 4th months, my dear boy :) ♥

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.Sunday, November 22 ' 7:23 AM Y

exams will be due the following week & i've not even touch my bloody books yet! im so gonna be dead meat. DEAD DEAD DEAD! i dont wanna fail! >:'C

&&& i've brought my Topshop de "dress" HAPPY!! :D.

waiting for tt elephant to reach home. * waiting waiting waiting~

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.Thursday, November 19 ' 5:52 AM Y

laying back on your arms, i feel like i'm one of the luckiest girl in the world aqain♥

baby having sore throat and slight fever. and he's working now! :C he should have rest at home, but he dont want. >:/ but at least i brought him some sweets for sore throat. :)

interview for IA tmr. gosh, scary!!!!!!!!!!

baby, GET WELL SOON HAHS! :) you still have to spent your entire time with me hohs! :D

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.Tuesday, November 17 ' 5:38 AM Y

You're everything I thought you never were
And nothing like I thought you could have been
But still, you live inside of me, so tell me how is that?
You're the only one I wish I could forget
The only one I love to not forgive
And though you break my heart, you're the only one
And though there are times when I hate you
'Cause I can't erase
The times that you hurt me and put tears on my face
And even now, while I hate you, it pains me to say
I know I'll be there at the end of the day

There's something that I feel I need to say
But up til' now I've always been afraid that you would never come around
And still I wanna put this out

You say you've got the most respect for me
But, sometimes I feel you're not deserving of me
And still, you're in my heart
But you're the only one
And yes, there are times when I hate you, but I don't complain
'Cause I've been afraid that you would walk away
Oh, but now I don't hate you
I'm happy to say
That I will be there at the end of the day

I don't wanna be without you, baby
I don't want a broken heart
Don't wanna take a breath without you, baby
I don't wanna play that part
I know that I love you, but let me just say
I don't wanna love you in no kind of way, no no
I don't want a broken heart
I don't wanna play the broken-hearted girl

things getting bad to worse. this is not i wanna. things im always afraid of is gonna happen? idontknow. its the third day since i saw your face. i remember the last time i saw your face, its your macdonald smile. till now~ i hope to tell you, how much i missed you, how much i wanna hug you tight, how much i dont wanna us to end up like that.

sorry that im not the perfect girl you've always wanted. theres always someone better than me.

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.Monday, November 16 ' 2:45 AM Y

days were bad afterall. everything seems nothing to me. i really got nothing and dont know to say. i didnt reply cause i dont wanna to start another fight. all the problem lies on me. why i dont let you go today? im just being too selfish, dont allow other girls to even touch their bloody hand on you. i cant even think of such situations gonna happen on me.

did i just got deep into this relationship? i did, i do and i does. im just afraid one day you would leave for good. would this day gonna arrive?

i just wanna see you for that moment. hug you tight for that moment. tell you sorry about everything for that moment. but i couldnt. just feel tt im all alone in this world. nothing else there for me to smile for. not even a funny joke. fake smile and laughter appear on my face.

i just feel like crying out loud. cry my lungs out. scream like nobody's business. im just a hopeless freako in such situations. I SUCKS.

edit;
out of sudden, i woke up. and start thinking what you said yesterday. and conclusion is, you can speak what you say, and didnt even fucking do it. all i can say now is, i dont trust whatever you said from today onwards.

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.Sunday, November 15 ' 5:21 AM Y

i hope you unds.

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.Saturday, November 14 ' 8:19 AM Y

evening met baby at tampines inter. then mrt to chinatown to get baby's pay. then mrt back to bedok and bus down to 85 and got our dinner there. ate ba chou mee, satay, stingray and chicken wings. full like hell can. but baby okok only. LOLS! such a big stomach he has.

then opposite block slacked. kind of ...... after that was alright. sorry about everything kay, about my black face and stuffs. you can mark my words. i will not break my promise:)

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.Friday, November 13 ' 7:05 AM Y

im just too lazy to elaborate. so copied from baby's blog. ;p

"After school meeted baby at 1PM goanna meet her to watch 2012 but she had her test till 2PM... lol. Lucky my friend was in school playing billard. If not i goanna wait alone. Haha~

Cab down to pasir ris as we missed bus.. When we reach there, all tickets were either selling fast or sold out. Just nice that we wanted to watch 2;45 and its sold out! OMG... Then we were like hesitating what other show to watch... But i only want to watch 2012 at the time. -_-! Then we went out of the Q, So shag at that time then baby suggest that maybe we can ask the counter so went we back to the Q and asked.. Lucky enough we asked the counter if there's still any seats available for that timing and just nice again there's a couple seats left and we took it! WOOO~ I was awake immediately. Hahaha!

It's a great show. I think its the best show of the year sia... It really made me get enthusiasm into it and what's goanna happen next. You guys out there MUST catch this show. Its really nice.

After that sent baby home and i went home : ) "

just dont like the feeling when i get to see your friends whenever i go! >:/

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.Thursday, November 12 ' 3:00 AM Y

school having Career Fair today. :D &&& i hope i could get in to London Management for my IA. woah! pray hard man! met kh. :D then lunch with baby at cafe2.

school ends early today as our PE teacher is not around. so baby and i decided to catch a movie @ 3.05 at tampines mall. cab there.

managed to get into the show on time. :D this show is freaking boring at first. once it shows half of the story. it began to be eriee and scary. GOSH MAN! and after the show, i was shocked by the ending part. till now~ ==. freak it! catch this movie if you dare? :D

Watching the movie on "2012" tmr ! :D

&&&&& baby and i is qoinq for our massage after our eoy exam! HURRRAAAAHHHHH! cheers for that! i gonna countdown for that day! hehes ;D!

yesterday baby last minute nvr qo work, and came to find me! *jump high* but only manage to have lunch with him as im qoinq to science center for Body Worlds.

went there, tour-ed around. all the bodies there were real people. can you imagine? you're looking at dead people and animals. gosh man!

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.Tuesday, November 10 ' 3:42 AM Y

ohhhh. skipped school today. went to find baby. ^^ slacked @ his place. & he got one bird, damn cute can! kept playing with the bird. the bird is like so stupid similar to him. hahahas! :P opps! ;x

afternoon cooked maggi mee for tt bastard baby as he's hungry and i lazy qo down eat. LOLS. then 3 plus like tt, bus down pasir ris and have macdonald! :D then fairprice to buy my icecream. baby sent me home after tt.

how i wish i could spent every of my single day with you like this.

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.Sunday, November 8 ' 6:31 AM Y

OHHHHH. im just too lazy to update yesterday event.

sentosa then Ehub find baby.

fun day.

more pictures on Sentosa Trip @ :

http://www.facebook.com/home.php#/album.php?aid=122491&id=740698391&ref=mf

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.Friday, November 6 ' 1:55 AM Y

these few days qoinq to school = nvr qo school. yesterday, something happen. quite serious. damn last minute. went to hospital to visit tt person.

same goes for today. practical and hospital aqain with baby and babes:D &&&& father having operation today also. ==. wish everyone was alright after everything :)

frankly speaking,
i really fucking hate it.

maybe i'm just being too selfish,

holding you to myself only.

not letting you have your time with your friends.

but i really dont like it.

what the fuck can i do!?

i think i should slap myself hard and wake up.

tt im not the only one he have.

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.Tuesday, November 3 ' 5:39 AM Y

slacky day! skipped PM lesson. & went for SES test. break. and then bdm lesson. no SLO lesson alr! WAHOOOO~ happy:D

met baby and tm for macdonald after school~ and i saw some people. ==. bus home with baby after tt, :D

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.Monday, November 2 ' 4:25 AM Y

skipped first lesson, DLT practical. woke up @ 9 plus preparing to qo school. then baby sms me asked whether wanna qo tpy with him. so went him and skipped second lesson. LOLS! tt means i didnt qo school today. nice lors. no attendance. LOLS!

then bus 31. baby smsed me say babes is with him at busstop. so they went up the same bus as me:D bus tgt to tm. went to slacked awhile and find baby's friend. bus 8 to tpy. then baby and his friend went to get their billard cue done. while waiting, they went to play billard. macdonald after tt as i was damn hungry. :D GOT ONE SMALL FRIES FOR FREE. ;D. then went back awhile. and mrt back home:D

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