it's lovee;

.Thursday, April 30 ' 10:14 AM Y

update tmr.

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.Wednesday, April 29 ' 6:18 AM Y

wahooo, happy day man. spend ALOT TODAY.

school till 3 plus. walked around in school and bus home.

bath-ed. prepared and went to tampines1 with sis. we from the top walked till level 1. LOL. brought lin's present. and of cos somethings for myself and herself. facial products. she spent, $200 plus and i spent, $177. LOLS. actually i only wanna buy one toner which cost me around $46 like tt and a perfume. end up spend on another stuffs. but nvr mind. i think its worth it. :D. overall, spent $200+ today! omfg. heart pain. gonna save money!!!! :/

tmr mothers' day celebration dinner! YES. NICE FOODS. :}

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.Tuesday, April 28 ' 7:27 AM Y

FINE! I GIVE UP.

everything now seems like no turning back. yahs, you're right. you are you. i cant change the facts and reality of you. since now, everything end up like it, i have to give up. i cant continue torturing myself. so wad, tt i say i wont cry anymore. ended up, im the one hiding at one corner to cry. no one unds okay! so wad if you in school see me smile, do you actually know how i feel deep inside? no, no one ever knows it. everyone thinks tt i've get thro it. actually i dont. i've tried hard for everything. to get to know you well, get closer to you & unds you more. end up all my efforts all went down to the drain. forget it. end here then.

anyway, last picture for you.

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. ' 5:05 AM Y

I SLEPT FOR 12 HOURS YESTERDAY. pro right, :]

long tiring day today. lesson till 6 today. break, pei lyn for her lip piercing. DAMN SCARY can. LOLS. smoke and went for ms eng lesson. and she smell our cig smell. and she asked " why i smell cig smell hahs? you all just now went to smoke is it." then we just " no ars." then i at there fan-ing myself. LOLS. nice right. :DD. then EFC lesson and then HFC.having paraffin wax test, as i said earlier yesterday. not bad lars. my face very red today! i dont know why. :/

life now different. seems like back to old days, smoke smoke smoke. say wanna quit? i think its impossible. from sec 3 say till now alr. i've alr sick of my current life. sick and tired of everything. maybe even family. OR EVEN FRIENDS. fcuk hell sia. nbcb. i dont mind being a nun now. :/

saw you today. we seems like strangers. dont even know which other like tt. why the fcuking hell must end up like tt. maybe i fcuking know why. but dont want end like tt right. !@#$%^&*.

his name is * and he copy me. ==/.

anyway, i also must thanks him. for being there to make me smile. :D.

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.Monday, April 27 ' 4:08 AM Y

nothing interesting to post. i failed my class test. 8/20. nice right. i didnt study for it. & i hate LLA lesson now, i swear. I WANT MR SING TO COME BACK. :[. anyway, i gonna sleep now, although its like 7.10 only. im dead tired lors. :[. anyway, practical test tmr on paraffin wax. WISH ME GOOD LUCK. :D

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.Sunday, April 26 ' 8:10 AM Y

I WANT A NEW PHONE! :/

whole day at home. sleep eat sleep eat. LOLS. at night watch the show on channel U. and doing mothers' day present. AND ITS FINALLY DONE. all 5 man. :]]]]. i shall post the picture tmr. :D. and i wanna buy new fone, either touch-screen phone or tt new sony ericsson phone. :/. and i gonna work on 10May with jiasin and pearlyn! i need money! finding other work. intro? :}. anyway, gonna rest soon. NIGHT EVERYONE. :]

&&&&& since you feel sick abt it or me, then stop thinking whether to save this relationship or not. i can tell you, you dont have to. thats all. and i wont cry for you anymore. like they say, its not worthy to cry. feel sick? BANG THE WALL THEN. :]

things get worsen afterall. is this the ending we want?

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.Saturday, April 25 ' 9:46 AM Y

woke up at 11 plus today. for me, i find it early, cos i slept at around 4 last night.

prepared, went to joo chiat to fetch my cousin and cab to parkway. brought some personal stuffs and looking around at jewellery shop for mummy's present. all i can say is, TAKA sucks. :] and then popular to buy mothers' day present. doing some things creative. as a ex-art students, its my idea. :D shall take a picture of it when i finish all 5. :]

then went to inter to meet manfred and his friend. and brought some desserts. for me, i brought my favourite, YAM PASTE! :DDDDDD. finally, got to eat it after so long. then do the mothers' day stuffs and facial for ahxiang. his head fcuking big lors. dont know is headband problem or his head problem. LOLS. &&&&&& i feel bored now. :/

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. ' 9:21 AM Y

直到现在我才发现
我爱你有多深不管那里
都有我和你的回忆
一切早就已无所谓
所有痛过的痕迹
我想念你想念过去没有人能把你代替
再重来甜和苦我愿共度
baby say that i love you

原来我还love you so much
没有了你就没有我
yeah i love you so much
比爱自己还要多
原来我love you so much
想要给你幸福

重爱一次with you
只想和你在一起
生命才有意义
也许是风也许是雨
我不逃避爱的命?br>你曾是我的过去
不管未来到那里
一直是你永远是你
我们要让爱再继续
我的心不会再改变
你给我快乐再也没有谁

不再压抑真实的我
走过时空的交错
因为我love you so much
不再让你孤独

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.Friday, April 24 ' 3:26 AM Y

end school at 1. went to cafe 1 with pearlyn and jiasin to wait for gerald. *he's so fcking long can. ==.* joke around, laughing around like madwoman, doing stupid stuffs. and even try to act like one china girl, tt makes me laugh like madwoman. LOLS. after tt, went to slack. chit chatted and blahs stuffs. went home after tt. heading to my grandmother's house soon. :]. if there's anything to update, will post tonight. :D

maybe i should heed your friend's advise. give up now. but the fact is tt now, i fall too deep in and cant and bear to do it.

edit; 1.16am
back from grandma house. i having coughing and flu. seriously, my sound like out of tone lors, when i sing. LOLS. anyway, its cause smoking. so no medicine can cure.then kellie help to remove my dead skin behind my back. is like EEEK right. hahas. then doing something for the mothers' day present. and watched a show, Ghost Whisper, on channel 5. quite nice. not bad. reach home, changed. and play com.

anyway, lance say "good girl will have ppl dote and love." really mehs? not really lors. :/ i dont really agree with tt. hahahas.

ahhhhhhhhhhh~ I WANT MY SOUND TO BE BACK TO NORMAL.

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.Thursday, April 23 ' 5:30 AM Y

woke up early today, at 7. normally i will sleep at 7.30 or so. but i choose to wake up early today. got some emotion problems[it doesnt concern abt anyone. so dont ask me. >:/] tt cant really get me back to sleep. anyway, boring day. lesson end at 1. went to smoke outside the school with cliques, kansie, ketty and clara. then bus to inter with tricia, weiying and stella. then bus 33 to find mummy. went to eat and blah stuffs, went to cut hair.

FINALLY, i got my hair trim and cut. that "korkor" damn funny can. LOLS. making me laugh. stay in the salon till around 5. cab back to coffee shop. doze off on the table. plus i having gastric pain. fcuk sia. this few days, i've been having gastric pain. wtf? aiyahs. no care. i dont even bother abt it. anyway, IM F*CKING BOREDDDDDDDDD & TIREDDDDDDDDDD now~ :/

pictures taken last week with cliques. :]

i wanna cry out hard.

but i cant! :/

just wanna say,

IMISSYOU so. :]

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.Wednesday, April 22 ' 6:53 AM Y

school ends at 4 today.

before tt, something happen, and i just cant REN, and cried at staircase. i just cant really unds, i got toxic or am i poisonous? must you really keep tt distance from me? if really so, tell me then, and i wont ever bother you anymore. dont even dare to get near to you. FREAK. just tell me why, my heart aches like fuck. why must we end up like tt. I DONT UNDS.

forget it, after school, bus to near siglap CC and slack with gerald and eric. smoke, and tried out something new, Marborlo Fresh Mint. wahs. after one puff, i asked eric, " why got taxis the smell?" THEY was like LOL, i sit too much taxis. but i can swear, really got tt smell, and i dont like. LOLS. chit chatted. lots of laughters. then kellie called me said tt great-grandmother was admitted to the hospital aqain. and they say this time better qo. was like "ohh. ohhh. ohhh. okay" and rushed home after tt.

in the car, when on the way over there, i was like thinking, wad if she just like tt leave us? and i can imagine how i will cry like. but when visit her in the hospital, she still can shout all this. lols. and at the end, she still say bye bye to us. To me, she's just cute :]

reached home, washed up and have one of my favourite food, CHENDOL. and guess wad, i got gastric pain now after eating. ==/. and i gonna excerise, IM SO GONNA SLIM DOWN. >:[!

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.Tuesday, April 21 ' 5:23 AM Y

do i have the one where i can hug tightly? do i? *sigh*

long day in school today. lesson end at 5 plus. im freaking tired although i slept early yesterday. :/. and now i feel tired aqain. and its like only 8 plus nia. GOSH. ==. anyway, lyn didnt qo school, kind of bored. cos no one to play and joke with. :[. but i still got other cliques to pei me.

got talk during HCF and EFC lesson. i doze off like tt. hahas! :p & during care lesson, i kept getting disiao, becos of tt hair and fashion guy. ==/. then after lesson, saw him at Co-op shop outside. he was like finding model for his practical exam? and tricia they all, keep asking me to be his model. LOLS. but, in the im too shy to be one. HAHAS. :p. anyway, just wanna wish him all the best in his exams. :]. and yesterday saw junzhi, and give me tt kind of cheeky smile. LOLS. GOSH MAN. ==.

IM TIRED~ is there anything tt wont makes a person so sleepy, expect for coffee? :/.

anyway, i've updated those pictures

at sentosa. :] ENJOY.

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.Monday, April 20 ' 7:17 AM Y

boring day! :/
im thinking alot of rubbish now. so im qoinq to sleep now. ==/.

i wish there's shoulder for me to lean on

when i need it.

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.Sunday, April 19 ' 6:05 AM Y

went to work at hougang today. i think it might be the last day working there, as im tired! plus open school alr. :/. anyway, lots of customer today. fucking lot! come at one qo one sia. LOLS. really wanna kill me. doze off 3 times. LOLS.

and i gonna rest early tonight. :]

anyway, this is how superpig act cute! hahahas! anyway, very cute hahs. :D last few days de webby session. -

I WANNA BE MORE TANN! :[

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.Saturday, April 18 ' 5:16 AM Y

UPDATED!

Sentosa trip;

MY SUNBURN IS KILLING ME! :[

went there with kellie and felicia. FINALLY, I GOT MY SUNTAN. :]]]]. and im sweating like HELL can. ==. LOLS. suntan awhile and off i qo down to the water. before tt, wrote something on the sand. hehes. and after tt, i purposely qo step and clean other people one. WAHAHAS. okay, im bad, evil. SO WAD. *turn away*. :]. then qo bath. :]. wahs. bath tt time, wahs. i saw my skin got two colour. hahas. and im happy abt it! :DDDDDD.

then mrt to bugis to have our lunch at the new shopping center, iluma. at Empire State. foods there actually not bad. but their serving de time, damn fcuking slow can. OMG. we in there for 1 hour. pathetic right. just to eat, 4 dishes. GOSH. so at the end, kind of giving some suggestions lors. actually, the ladyboss there, not bad, knows how to get hold of the customer's interest/heart. but just because of the serving time, spoil everything. LOLS. but can unds. as its the first day of their opening. :]. but i will qo back there to eat aqain. :]

came home, saw sis, and walked home with her. she say i look like bangala lors. & dumb pig call me roasted pig. LOLS. mother they say tt, im too black. LOLS. but now im RED not BLACK. lols. really very red. GOSH. everyone at bugis is like looking at me with my sunburn. got one at busstop, even give tt fcukinbg shocking face. LOLS. tt shocking and weird mehs. its just sunburn. ==. singaporean really kiasu. ==/.

~~will upload more pictures.~~

~~once i get all. :D~~

anyway, this dedicate to my superpig. :D

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.Friday, April 17 ' 8:14 AM Y

today after school, went to slack with gerald. chit chat, smoke and home sweet home.

this few days, have been sleeping late. and XINYI IS LACK OF SLEEP. lols. afternoon did sleep, but still cant dong till late night. why hahs. >:[. btw, gonna work at hougang on sun. fuckgosh sia. really dont wanna qo down. but no choice. grandma call me qo down. i dont know how to reject her. !@#$%^&*

SUNTANNNNN TMRRRRRRRRRRR! YEAH!

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.Thursday, April 16 ' 7:38 AM Y

today HCF practical, we done paraffin wax. damn nice. LOLS. i want more, i want more! :D

im getting lots of pimple this few days! >:[. there there's one on my nose. LOLS. damn funny lors. red red one on my nose. like clown like tt. but lynlyn say tt, tt means "tao hua". really? LOLS. this few days, okay lars. so this one im kind of believe? LOLS.

thats all, :]

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.Wednesday, April 15 ' 7:31 AM Y

school till 4 today. :D after tt, went to meet gerald near matt's house there. slack, smoke. chatting away. hahas. currently life. and past life. remember last time, we, mh, wes, sean confirm meet at weekend and qo out one. LOLS! slack, smoke and drink, nightlife. weahs! really miss those days BADLY. :/

after tt, pei gerald buy sth and walked tgt to my house there. off he qo to busstop and home sweet home for me. :D

someone say im a "book". cos rita, read it in chinese. " RI then TA". like read him/her. LOLS. so someone say im a book. ==. lols. he say till i bwg. keep "errrr. errr. errr. okay.. okay..". LOLS. really got nth to comment abt it. LOLS. ==/.

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.Tuesday, April 14 ' 6:36 AM Y

kind of bored right now. so came to blog. :]]]

anyway, school these two days was boring lars. study study study. >:[. plus school was so fcuking crowded. ==.

met my superpig at cafe 1 today. he came to find me. LOLS. he was loitering around the school, so why not come find me sia. LOLS. right? logic hohs. hahas. then CARE period saw someone. he cut his hair. LOLS. kind of long didnt see him le. :DDDDD

reached home at 6 or 6 plus, bath, eat then here i am. playing com. BORED ARS! ==. anyway, webby with my superSMELLYpig now. ;]. PS: you know why hahs. ;DDDDD

just now, brendon called and sms-ed me, didnt answered and replied. then just now sms-ed him, and he call back. [damn fast lars. ==.] he told me said tt he was worrying liker fcuk? LOLS. ps hahs, let you worried alr. :x. btw, i will be having my "O Ni" [yam paste] tmr. LOLS. mother gonna cook for me. YEAHHHHH~ :d

anyway, sentosa this sat.

YESSSAA! SUNTAN, here i COME. ;]

& I WANNA MEET LION SOON! :]

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.Monday, April 13 ' 5:39 AM Y

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY, MONKEY :]

school starts today! SOOOO SIANS! ==

the school was pack with people. LOTS OF PEOPLE. ==. cause the april intake came to school le. but we still manage to find seats during our lunch break. :D tmr lesson end at 6. OMFG. ==

anyway, some pictures abt last sat and sun.

SAT;
celebrating kai's birthday with cousin and family. kind of fun. cause someone's face kana the cake. *wink wink*. before tt, play hotel626 with ahxiang. its like finally dare to see the screen. ;DDDDD. then watched liang popo with him. we laugh like fuck hell lors. LOLS. should watch it at youtube. :DD

SUN;
went to cathay to have dinner and celebrate Monkey's birthday. and guess wad was the picture on the cake? - TRANSFORMER. hahas! its was me and kellie's idea. hehes. then went bugis with kellie and lin as the others went home. brought my hello kitty keyboard. ;]]]. then went to the new shopping center aqain to play arcade. home sweet home after tt. :D

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.Saturday, April 11 ' 9:08 AM Y

went off early today. :] cause meeting tt rabbit. okay. mrt there. then its like raining heavily! and we both nvr bring umbrella! ==. so bo bian, taxis to phoon huat. its like opposite us only. ==. paid. and off i qo home and he went for his class bbq. :]

anyway, celebrated sis belated birthday. pictures will be upload tmr. as im kind of lazy now! stay tune then. ;]

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.Friday, April 10 ' 8:44 AM Y

Happy Birthday sis & Gerald Tan. :]

went to work at hougang aqain. ==/. gonna work till sun. plus today, lots of customers. and i cant even find time to sleep sia. but in the afternoon. theres accident. motor accident. i dont know how the motorist falls down hahs. i heard, OMG! and turn. and saw the motorist slowly crawling to the side. i was like OMFG! WAD HAPPEN?! but too busy alr. dont care too much. LOLS. :D. when it started to rain HEAVILY, then the customers slowly reduced. can imagine how tired im. ==/

anyway, meeting LarryLanxiaobaitu tomorrow. ;DDDDDD. nice name hahs. hehehes. boring life im having now ==/ I WANNA GO OUT! :'[ and i think i need a haircut session soon! my hair sucky sucks now. :/

PS: i feel so jealous now?! >:C why ahs? :?

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.Thursday, April 9 ' 8:39 AM Y

hougang today. all i can say is, SUCH A BORING DAY. ==. on the way home, chatted with my dumb pig on the fone. ;]

im bored, bored, bored!

anyway, anyone have ideas of places tt have buffet during dinner time? :]

edit; 12.39pm

one glass of milk, and off i qoinq to sleep. :] enjoy your night hahs, my dumb piggy ;]

Happy Good Friday to all :]

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.Wednesday, April 8 ' 5:30 AM Y

went to hougang and work. taxis there and back. im tired. i lazy take mrt. ==.

yesterday webcam with gene aqain. ==. then chat on the fone with him, till he fall asleep! LOLS. i thro cam see him like not moving like tt. then i "hello? hello hello hello? HELLO!" no answer. LOLS. ==. then know he fall asleep. ass pig sia he! LOLS.

btw, my dumb pig went to sentosa today. and he wrote this and send to me. i was like !#@$%^&*!. he so gonna get it from me! >:C. wahahahas! *winkwink*

edit; 2.26am

anyway, my superpig having sunburn on his face now. red red on the cheek somemore. hahahas! like having two red apple on his cheek. qo apply some cream on your face hahs, or you qo tolerate the pain lors. i wont xin tong one. ;DDDDD

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.Tuesday, April 7 ' 7:59 AM Y

NEW BLOGSKIN! ;]

today went out with kellie and felicia to bugis? before tt, accompany kellie back to school to collect her dont know wad money de. guess i saw who? zhixian, with his gf. i was like all the way thro smiling only. hello also dont want to say. wtf i must say hello to him. LOLS. plus her gf de wearing weird can. lols. no offence. but its really weird! ==.

then mrt to bugis, met felicia and then shop for sis present. brought ************ for her and then went to the new opened shopping center beside bugis street. haven offically opened yet lars. but got shops opened alr. then we last minute decided to watched "The Unborn" over there.

went to buy tickets and went to arcade to play. [took a picture of dumb pig's love ;D]

and then kellie got herself ONE CARE BEAR. lols. was like "yessssss!" when she got the bear. and felicia was like laughing at us. LOLS. ==

bus 2 home after tt. :DDDDDDDDD resting early today. head kind of pain?

anyway, im gonna sign up for the baking lesson with Larry. hope tt its isnt full yet.

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.Monday, April 6 ' 10:45 AM Y

today went to baibai for "qing ming" and guess wad time i slept yesterday? 2 plus lors. LOLS. suppose to sleep early de. then cant sleep. but afterall, worth it lars. as i found out something. :X.

5 plus woke up. 2-3 hours sleep only. ==. then bath, prepared and get those "stuffs" down. then went to the place located near mandai road. then went to bai my great grandfather, great grandmother and my 1st grandmother. ummmm. my grandfather cried. :]. its expected. LOLS. then after tt, burn those paper, houses, boat, car and even OSIM chair. LOLS. the fire damn hot can. then im the one burning the paper. ==. can you imagine i run here and there like madwoman? LOLS. *dont laugh*

aftertt, went home to sleep. as im tired! woke up at around evening time bahs. if im not wrong. play com, walked here and there. didnt really eat alot during dinner as i having stomach cramp. went back to sleep. woke up at 10 plus. and now, IM STILL TIRED. :/.

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.Sunday, April 5 ' 7:55 AM Y

this the bruise i having now. damn pain can ==.

for today, went to sing k with ah xiang they all. fun times with them. sing together, laugh together, eat together and then GET WET TOGETHER! ==. cause its like raining heavily after we reached there. heavy rain kay. and we only got one pathetic umbrella. so xiang and his two sis used it first. then he came over, and i was like running over lars. first time get SOOO wet sia. ==. then tt big boss, saw me running, still stand there wait for me to run over there sia. ass sia him!. LOLS. damn cold after tt. ==.

sis joined us at around 3. sing till 4 and went over to find mummy. fall asleep on the table with sis. she sleep damn weird! keep shake the table de lors. LOLS. weird~

reached home, chatted with gene. then webby with him. so long nvr see him, his hair grow liao. :D i remember the last time i saw him, his hair is botak. LOLS. but now got fringe le. not bad, :D

then web with super pig aqain :D he nvr fail to make me laugh like siaozabor during every webby session. omg. LOLS. PS: you have a pig mouth hahs! ;P

anyway, tmr gonna wake up early to qo bai "qing ming". wahoo. its like so long nvr qo le. got afew years le. so wanna qo this year. gonna sleep early alr. :D

NIGHT EVERYONE:]

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.Friday, April 3 ' 9:19 AM Y

finally, tmr no need to work. REST REST REST! im tired can. every night sleep late, then next morning must wake up early. want my life alr lors. ==. anyway, just now went to work, then cousin's house to have dinner, then to grandma's house. back at 10 plus? :D. & i got bruise and gastric pain. wth~! ==. pain lars. ==.

anyway, showing pictures of me and super pig. :D. webby session yesterday. i told him i got nothing to blog abt, so he allow me to blog the pictures. :D. later he gonna blog it at his too. :D. funny pictures! ;]]

enjoy your night hahs, super DUMB pig. ;]

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.Thursday, April 2 ' 9:34 AM Y

met minghui yesterday after work at hougang. went to heartland walk and then near-by hawker to have some dessert. :]. then mrt with her.

today went to joochiat to help mummy. 3 things happen,

1st thing;
another person saying i look like chi-na girl, and sis look like malaysian! ==. fcuk? LOLS. i really so white mehs. wth~ ppl say i look like chi-na or malay. wth! i got two different colour skin tone? can change colour one is it. one black and another white sia. ==. their eyes blind alr. ==.

2nd thing;
got one taxis bang till the sign pole. and the pole just like tt "fall down". LOLS. its like morning lehs, somemore not raining or wad. LOLS. pathetic right. then i think one uncle call wrongly, call till the ambulance there. LOLS. then they came and saw no injuried person.[this is the part tt makes me laugh!] then traffic police came. the taxis came back. and do the blah stuffs. and went off.

3rd thing;
my grandfather took of his pant. LOLS. i was shocked sia. then went to tell mummy. and asked him wad happen. he say he wanna shit. lols. then one of the worker help him to the toilet. omgosh. actually is because, his leg dont have the strength to walk anymore and he coughing like mad can. so kai and me went to buy medicine for him after work.

GRANDPA, get well soon! :]

anyway, webby with super DUMB pig just now. took some screen shot. hehes. but he dont allow me to post. too bad. but if he does update his on his blog, i shall upload here too. :D

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.Wednesday, April 1 ' 10:15 AM Y

till today, i finally unds why its hard for us to continue this relationship. actually distance doesnt matter. cause, i dont mind travelling from one side to another side. actually is tt we both dont have time for each other. you have your stuffs to do, your Os to study. whereas for me, i also got my stuffs to do and study. plus i dont wanna because of this and affect your result afterall. maybe tts the reason, why we both should give up? let it be the past and memories. its shall be part of the history of my life. hope you find your right one soon. :]

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