.Sunday, August 29 ' 7:31 AM Y
I'M GONNA UPDATE TMR~
cause i'm tired alr:D
.Friday, August 27 ' 4:10 AM Y
2 weeks holiday is ending soon. fucked up! :(
anyway, changed back to old blogskin. others dont seems nice to me at all. LOLS. still prefer this. anyway, while using photobucket, i saw my last time de pictures. omg~ the face complexion is like alot better than now. eek~ miss it. :( when i see this, i'm thinking whether, long hair or short hair suits me more?
(few years back)
Any different compare to now? BIG DIFFERENCE. lol.
(current)
these 2 weeks what am i doing? nothing nice? either stay at home or went to find baby. went seesha all these. although i'm happy. but not really happy. happy days always come to an end at certain time. isnt it? then bad things come after that.
when will those happy days come again?
.Monday, August 16 ' 8:44 AM Y
I Still Remember When I First Saw You ....it was at cafe 2. you were sitting with your friends. so am i. out of sudden, you friend came to me and say tt someone over there wants my number. but i think he pointed the wrong guy. but i did saw you, sitting straight just looking infront. so i just gave it. then you smsed me. then i knew it was you. saw you outside indoor stadium . i was with pearlyn. then we chatted. later you said you going for practical sms me later. i remember, i went for baking lesson with larry. after that, on the way home then i receive your message. in between i thought you wouldnt want to sms alr. but you did. so we continue smsing each other. till i saw you cafe 2 again while i was Q-ing up for ban mian. you smile at me. tt was the first time you smile at me. then we start callign each other names. i called you super tortoise. but i cant remember what you call me. then one night, you called me and told me you were super tortoise..... i wont forget how the way you talk to me.I still remember....tt day was sun eclipse. i skipped school to see it but i was having rashes also. went to see doc alone. after tt, i went to visit hakkem at changi hospital. you pei me. that was the first time i went out with you. after tt, failed to visit him and you suggested going tm. once we reached tm. you brought my favourite, Vanilla Milkshake for me. i was happy after tt. then we went to arcade and play. i still remember i won you. :) went to t1 and met my secondary friends. you pei me also. you pei take bus then home sweet home.one night, you told me, you like me. i dont believe it. but you told me is the truth. i was shocked after that. cause, i also start to like you alr..then on the 25 july 2009, we went to ps Cathay to watched The Haunting Connecticut. horror show. in between, you hugged me while i'm cold and scared. after tt, at mrt, you spoke on my ear to be your girlfriend. I'm happy. but shy. so i smsed you the answer. pei you go hg to play billard. then you send me home as you scared i miss my way home. and tt was sweet. :)Sweet moments, like national day; my birthday; halloween day, was happening till .... last year, when you went clubbing all those. worst, that i will never forget in my life.last year dec, on the christmas eve night. i was happily ending my work. wanna go celebrate with you. end up you say you cant find me due to some family issue. we quarrelled over it. and i went to meet gerald and co for a drink at east coast. next day, christmas day. you came to find me after my work @ 6. we went to east point to have your dinner @ sakae. i saw your phone kept ringing but you didnt wanna answer. so i went to take alook. the first time, in my life, i saw those messages in your phone. which i couldnt believe i will see such message from your phone. & it was first time in my life i saw my boyf having fling outside. not even those, every things you did, even on christmas eve! from tt day on, i was utterly disppointed in you.life from tt day was up and down. one day you told me something. you were just playing me from the start. till (i forget when) then you start to be serious. from tt sentence on, from tt day you told me this, everything. i start to think. from the start till now, did i make the wrong choice and decision? My mind and our relationship have never been peace till now. last few day, i saw our neoprint inside your wardrobe. it's like being abandon there. It reflect on me alot of things. Questions .... Answers to it .... by that, are you telling me, you're ready to abandon our relationship and me like how you put tt neoprint aside?till now, the deep scar is still there in my heart, in my mind. the terrible experiences i had. and you wont understand this point. you will only say i have attitude problem. hot temper. petty. whatelse. alot more. scar is scar. there's nothing tt can heal it. till now, nothing.i feel insecure now. which you wont care and bother. I cant see why you need me and important to you till now. the things you doing is like, in your life, there's no such things as "girlfriend". all you know is games, friends, drink, work. nothing else. and i fucking hate the way you treat me.i still remember every lil tiny bits about us. i bet you dont. our stuffs and my stuffs, you wont remember. you told me. unless is very impt ones. tt moment, my heart sank...
till now, i'm still crying hard like how i cried when i first saw everything.
.Sunday, August 15 ' 5:51 AM Y
Maybe it's time for me to leave.
.Sunday, August 1 ' 8:30 AM Y
I just wanna be a happy girl.
