it's lovee;

.Friday, June 25 ' 8:27 AM Y

HAPPY 11TH MONTHS WITH MY DEAR BABY BOY :)
although it's not a very good day at first, but we enjoyed it at last :)
awaiting for our 1 year ^^.
it will be a good one :D
muacks!

loved

.Wednesday, June 23 ' 7:48 AM Y

my blog gonna be dead soon i guess. LOLS! i've got nth to post. holiday ain't like holiday to me. work work work work. money money money. i think, i think of money till i fall sick. just recovered from my fever. now i'm still having flu and coughing. damn my voice changed. sucks can :/

life stress till want my life alr. dont even have a proper day for me to rest well. till now, tonight, i have to burn essential oil in my room. :(

my current life is like ohmygod to me. like there's no more school life for me. no more studies. just plain working. god.

I'M TIRED! I NEED A GOOD REST! :'(

loved

.Saturday, June 19 ' 7:21 AM Y

Cause without you, I can't breathe
I'm not gonna ever let you leave
You're all i've got, all I want.

And without you, I don't know what I'll do
I can never ever live a day without you
Here with me, do you see.
You're all i need.

All my life, I'll be with you forever, baby.
you?

loved

.Wednesday, June 9 ' 7:11 AM Y

bad day i can say. everything was bad. except for my practice for CMS Listening exam was alright. i got 8/10. :)

& i think i injuried my feet and even the back of my head while i'm in bad mood. i really dont know what i was doing and thinking that moment of time. i just need to know, you got no time for me. even spending that few mins with me, you're just that busy. and i think you're now crazy for money, no long crazy for our relationship like the past. getting more and more arrogant, even the food you wanna eating is of getting out of line.

till now, i miss you so so so so much, your voice, your jokes, your sweet talks, everything. but i dont even dare to sms you. i dont wanna disturb you. how much i wanna cry and scream that i'm sad, not satisfied, or whatever. i have to keep it to myself. scream inside my heart, cry inside my dreams. i cant tell you. now you think i'm seeking your attention, but i'm not. so the more i shouldnt do all these things to you. i only can do it to myself, no one out there that i can really do all these, only you. No choice for me to make.

all myself now. everything i do, only myself. whenever i go, only myself. till that day you're back and done with your stuffs, i hope we could get through it.

but i just wanna say, we dont need money to spend happy life. so what if you got alot of money. yes, you may say you can buy whatever you want. but you cant buy everything you want. No money, also can lead a simple and even happier life. like we use to have at the start. & i think for me, the most important is that I dont need you to be very rich or even rich only, all i need is you to be by my side.

or maybe ... it's just you wanna have your own satisfaction. not what i'm thinking. i wont know.. time will prove lots of things.

loved

.Tuesday, June 8 ' 4:27 AM Y

ohh.. my body is getting weaker and weaker.
mother say my "look" is getting good to bad.

Hand and feet getting colder each day.

What happen to me?

fainted yesterday while having my dinner. it's like ... giddy and slowly cant really see anything and black out. my eyes turned white and lips turned black. after all the pinching and pressing from my mother and maid. manage to wake up. after that, mother used a spoon and something like "rub" over it. pain till i cried, also thinking about the stuffs. i cried. and i realise i become thinner than before. my hand is like bone. LOLS. but ... you dont believe and think that i use "faint" this word to get your attention. afterall, i also lazy to explain. explain so much for what? as my boyfriend you dont believe, what can i say, and i dont wish to explain that much. wanna believe or not is up to you.

today, morning damn pehceh. without your understand, still say dont want talk to me. gg then. after that, felt very cold, my hand and leg is like having winter season. after that, i feel better after getting panadol and some warm water. warms hugs from you also. :)

after that, things come again. and i feel ... lots of things. thinking and thinking ... till i'm lazy to think alr. dont even want to think. i'm tired! tired of those heartaches, hurting words from your mouth!

& i dont come 1st in your mind, or heart, no matter where, right?

Think it hard.

Are you willingly to Give in and Put Effort in our relationship?

I need a guy who can! CHANGE WILL YOU!?

and dont give excuse like what "i will give in alot last time and blahblahblah"

i think i gave in more than you gave.

Think it hard.

& save those hurting words if you have.

loved

.Saturday, June 5 ' 6:02 AM Y

whole dat at home. bored man. whole day eat sleep eat sleep till head kinda heavy. think gonna become fatty bom bom soon. LOLS.

sis went to hk alr. so the house kinda QUIET. still thinking whether should go taiwan anot. 1 week tour. freaky long. and i only have 3 weeks de holiday, and dont wanna just waste one week like tt. still thinking it now. :/ still got alot of places feel like going and maybe working. *AHHHHHHH*

NAHS.. I'M BORED BORED BORED BORED!

* but how i wish he could do all those. like what they said, i would love him to the max if he could do all this."

loved

.Wednesday, June 2 ' 6:06 AM Y

Lots of feeling, questions follow by answer running thro my mind.
ever since after what i've saw.

somehow... lots of things telling me the answer to my questions.
i couldnt control anymore.
i'm just too weak infront of you.

will you be happier that way?

loved