.Tuesday, June 8 ' 4:27 AM Y
ohh.. my body is getting weaker and weaker.
mother say my "look" is getting good to bad.
Hand and feet getting colder each day.
What happen to me?
fainted yesterday while having my dinner. it's like ... giddy and slowly cant really see anything and black out. my eyes turned white and lips turned black. after all the pinching and pressing from my mother and maid. manage to wake up. after that, mother used a spoon and something like "rub" over it. pain till i cried, also thinking about the stuffs. i cried. and i realise i become thinner than before. my hand is like bone. LOLS. but ... you dont believe and think that i use "faint" this word to get your attention. afterall, i also lazy to explain. explain so much for what? as my boyfriend you dont believe, what can i say, and i dont wish to explain that much. wanna believe or not is up to you.
today, morning damn pehceh. without your understand, still say dont want talk to me. gg then. after that, felt very cold, my hand and leg is like having winter season. after that, i feel better after getting panadol and some warm water. warms hugs from you also. :)
after that, things come again. and i feel ... lots of things. thinking and thinking ... till i'm lazy to think alr. dont even want to think. i'm tired! tired of those heartaches, hurting words from your mouth!
& i dont come 1st in your mind, or heart, no matter where, right?
Think it hard.
Are you willingly to Give in and Put Effort in our relationship?
I need a guy who can! CHANGE WILL YOU!?
and dont give excuse like what "i will give in alot last time and blahblahblah"
i think i gave in more than you gave.
Think it hard.
& save those hurting words if you have.
