.Wednesday, June 9 ' 7:11 AM Y
bad day i can say. everything was bad. except for my practice for CMS Listening exam was alright. i got 8/10. :)
& i think i injuried my feet and even the back of my head while i'm in bad mood. i really dont know what i was doing and thinking that moment of time. i just need to know, you got no time for me. even spending that few mins with me, you're just that busy. and i think you're now crazy for money, no long crazy for our relationship like the past. getting more and more arrogant, even the food you wanna eating is of getting out of line.
till now, i miss you so so so so much, your voice, your jokes, your sweet talks, everything. but i dont even dare to sms you. i dont wanna disturb you. how much i wanna cry and scream that i'm sad, not satisfied, or whatever. i have to keep it to myself. scream inside my heart, cry inside my dreams. i cant tell you. now you think i'm seeking your attention, but i'm not. so the more i shouldnt do all these things to you. i only can do it to myself, no one out there that i can really do all these, only you. No choice for me to make.
all myself now. everything i do, only myself. whenever i go, only myself. till that day you're back and done with your stuffs, i hope we could get through it.
but i just wanna say, we dont need money to spend happy life. so what if you got alot of money. yes, you may say you can buy whatever you want. but you cant buy everything you want. No money, also can lead a simple and even happier life. like we use to have at the start. & i think for me, the most important is that I dont need you to be very rich or even rich only, all i need is you to be by my side.
or maybe ... it's just you wanna have your own satisfaction. not what i'm thinking. i wont know.. time will prove lots of things.
