it's lovee;

.Tuesday, April 27 ' 7:28 PM Y

i've the urge to talk to you.
why do i have this urge. do you have it too?
have i ever cross your mind after that?
is it good stuffs or bad stuffs?
*thinking hard* -> bad stuffs.

i've have been fucking attitude these few days.
and i cant get to know why.
just a little tiny stuff, i will getting freaking pissed off.
sign of depression? ._.! nope??

whenever we got into a fight, after that, i will regret what i've said. like now.
after each fight, i feel freaking hell sad, disappointed; like i'm having hell depression!
hell thinking lots of stuffs, questioning myself, telling myself, and blah stuffs.
just like a girl from mental hospital.
i dont want that! x'c

i've

low self-esteem

low confidence

i dont feel good being myself

i feel i'm sucks at all times

i dont even love myself

that makes me think alot why you wanna be with me.

W.H.Y?

i'm not pretty or whatsoever.

what makes you be with me?

each time, is it too late to regret or not?
at times i wonder, "why do i even bother" when you dont.
it's like i'm all alone at the situation.

not talking to each other for the night or even whole day, you might be fine or even okay with it.

but do you think i'm okay or fine with it?

like my friend's msn nick:

"I dropped a tear in the ocean. The day you find it is the day I will stop missing you."

maybe it's right. maybe this sentence applies to you.

there so much question in my mind now. that might not be even solved.

i feel freaking insecure now.

hugs wont make me feel better.

is the answer that might make me feel better.

so when will it be the time?

& thinking what will be the next hurting words you'll say after you see this post? or not even a single things? :/

._.

If I were blue, would you be there for me,
And whisper in my ears that's okay.
Would you stand by me, let me hold you tight,
And say you love me one more time.

If I feel good, would you slow dance with me,
And touch my lips with tender loving care,
Would you die for me, would you run with me,
And never look back..

If I will wait, would you still think of me,
And wished that you could hold me now.
Would you die for me, would you run with me,
All the way..

Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?

Would you be there to save my soul tonight?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,
to take my breath away

& to kiss my pain away..

Would you be there?
For me..

i just wanna get your attention on me, baby.

WHAT'S ON YOUR MIND?

loved