.Saturday, March 13 ' 10:45 PM Y
heading to malaysia tomorrow. at first, was cracking brain whether should i going or stay instead. at the end, nothing holds me back. so i guess i will be going then.
the last message you send, indeed. things will be changing i guess. i guess like you said, you wont regret. and i dont think you will. cause having such a sucky girlfriend like me, i guess it's all bad luck.
i dont know what to do if there's any chances. maybe i ought to blame for myself. serve myself right. blame on my bloody attitude i guess. and i dont even have confident in myself. so i dont think you need to have confident in me.
i've been telling people what to do in such situations. but when its my turn to face such situations, i dont know what to do. god! what a good "adviser" can i be. only can say it and not do it.
if there's anything happen or what, just wanna say, you're a wonderful guy.
Edit;
its 12.00am now. and i'm still not on my bed resting. need to wake up early tmr. and i'm still not sleeping! ohf! anyway, i'm tired, eyelid kinda heavy, yawning all the way, but once i lie down, i just cant get to sleep. sickening can. maybe old problem coming again~ freak. hate it! when will i ever stop thinking about it! & its getting worse each time.
out of sudden, i dont feel like going. reason for it is that i miss you terribly. but i have no choice now. x'/
heading to malaysia tomorrow. at first, was cracking brain whether should i going or stay instead. at the end, nothing holds me back. so i guess i will be going then.
