it's lovee;

.Saturday, February 28 ' 10:00 PM Y

sians. why everyone smsing and calling me to quit smoking. GGRRRR. knn. no stress, in the end also stress by you all. i alr have lots of things like money all those waiting for me to think and solve it. i dont wanna next day wake up and see this type of message. so dont think of me replying. sick of replying this type of message.

out of sudden, you suddenly sms me and call me, i dont know wad to do. i thought i have one lesser problem for me to think, but it seems like, i gonna think abt it aqain. i dont wanna same things happen to me. i wanna move on and not stuck here. and it really took me lots of tears and courage to move on. so no more obstacles in front of me aqain!.

and its like someone wanna me help him to pass message? but i agree to help him. its like stupid sia. siao one. this type of thing ownself ask lars. knn. need me mehs. as if im you msn like tt. hey, human here kay. not msn. btw, i will still help you pass just for once. dont ask me to pass it aqain. i will piss you off. currently no mood. so dont talk to me.

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.Friday, February 27 ' 7:13 AM Y

ahhhh! im gonna be dead from hunger! ==. im so hungry. and i can only eat BREAD. nothing else in the house. ==. but... i secretly ate two meat ball. hehes. one of my favourite foods made by my grandmother. GRRRRRRRRR. no choice. too hungry alr. cannot blame. and im like lack of nutrients lors. ==. now for me is only, porridge, cai xin, porridge, cai xin. GRRRRRRRR. I SWEAR, after i recover, i must eat GOOD FOOD! no more porridge and cai xin for me. >:C

anyway, im gonna miss tmr outing to sentosa with cliques. :C. I SO GONNA MISS IT. :'C. and im so gonna miss my SUN-TANNING~ :''c. nvr mind. theres always other day. enjoy hahs guys! :D

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.Thursday, February 26 ' 6:31 PM Y

i apologize for nt updating my blog. as im not feeling well. shall talk abt tt later. :)

on wed, the whole class plus 2 other beauty classes went to suntec for beauty exhibition. nahs. i find it rather boring. then i shall someone. hehes. but i shall not say who is the person. then went to sky garden with cliques. :). fun times with them.

then i went home first. during the bus journey home, i feel rather uneasy. like gonna vomit like tt. i thought i smoke too much or wad. so didnt really care about it. reach home, got myself bath and sat down for my dinner. then mother pass me "ling yang" to drink. after tt, it became worse. im having stomachache and feel like vomitting aqain. its like having this problem at night too. the next morning, i have diahorre went in the toilet quite some times. actually didnt want to qo to school. but im holding to siti's paper and having spa tour. so no choice. force myself to school.

tat first was alright. but the minutes when i got into the bus, i really wanna faint alr. its like i feel terrible. i ren till at the end of everything. gosh. and i took cab home. & the cb uncle like dont know how to drive sia. his car keep on jerking. and the more i feel like vomitting. and he nearly drove me to wrong place. fuck sia.

then nvr mind. the worst thing is tt, i vomitted at the staircase. fuck. rush home and took a rest. force myself to drink hotsoup. and evening mother bring me to see doc. the doc say tt im having fever, 38.1/9 ars(forget alr), diahorre& vomitting. so is my big intestine having "flu", 大肠感冒。lols. then on the way home, i vomitted at my house downstair. ahhh. terrible feeling. im like a dead person now. just feel very tired. can only eat small potion only, or else, im gonna vomit aqain. ahhh! i wanna faster recover!

btw, i must thanks all my cliques for taking care of me. and others for showing concern. thanks hahs. :D

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.Tuesday, February 24 ' 4:21 AM Y

woke up quite early today. as i need to help lynlyn to deposit the cheque in bank. then meet them at bus stop. its like everyone looking at me with tt look. i look strange mehs? i dont wad. fuck hell. dont give a damn to wad people thinks of me. i am me wad. wtbf you want. dont like? get lost then. i dont give a fuck damn. swoo.

have my practical test today. on hand and foot massage? errr. for me, i think its okay lars. lols. and JIAXIN IS MY PARTNER! :D. hehes. count me lucky? afterall, i still have one oral test, teacher will ask one Q abt on contra-indications and benefit for the massage. i think im alright with it. LOLS. remember those easy and common one can liao. ;D. clever right? thank you.

anyway, im quite attitude and bad-tempered this few days. so try not to piss me off. thanks.

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.Monday, February 23 ' 4:06 AM Y

feel very weak today? dont know why. cant really express how i feel today. so actually today de me was like very fake? can just cry like tt? dont know lars. cb. dont ask me anything. im not in the fucking right mood to tell you. just fuck off from me awhile. i need to be alone.

anyway, got the picture from eric's friendster. on gerald's stead de birthday last year. i very ugly. so no need to see.

thats all.

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.Sunday, February 22 ' 5:47 AM Y

woke up at 11 plus qoinq 12 today. tired ars. yesterday 2 plus like tt ars. if im not wrong then sleep. gosh! woke up, "赖床" awhile then qo brush my teeth and cook for my breakfast-lunch. and its is egg porridge. didnt took the picture of it. LOLS. forgot to take. hahas. then afternoon, ate this salad(below). its veg(dont know wad veg), onion, ginger and tomato and some lime in it. its like so sour. LOLS. :x.

eventually, i will get hungry after tt. and tt bryan say wad he eating pancake now. then i was like, AGGRRR. i feel like eating waffle. before tt, one word, LAZY. but no choice, then went down with my sis. brought one waffle, bubble tea and Ricola de sweet. lols. the waffle wasnt tt "nice". only got egg de smell. ==. left one mouth dont want liao. then the bubble tea wasnt like last time de liao. like kind of plain liao? or is it my taste bud abit tiao ti? hahas. after tt. ate some salad aqain. and ice pop. isit like tt spell. dont know. fcuk care. hahas.

BORINGGGGG~ school tmr. it's like so fast lors? the weekend? omgosh! i want faster weekend aqain! lols. ;X.

why aint we getting our love ones?
why?
it's like, im tired in relationship.
when i cant even get the things i want and desire.
so wad the fuck am i in relationship.
>：c

last few days, we were happily chatting on the fone.
and im waiting for your foods to arrive.
so wad for i wait when we qonna end this?
next wed is our 1 month.
just 3 more days.
forget it. i bet you also forget abt it or wad fcuk hell.
and remember the promises? when you asked for stead?
“照顾我，爱护我。我愿意，你呢?’’
this is wad you asked me.
but i think theres no love in your heart right?
can see it. im not blind.
remember? tt time you afraid tt im gonna say break?
i think you arent.
aiya. all rubbish, craps and empty promises.
nvr mind. we shall end here.
thats all.
happy?

心事，谁知?
心痛，谁能了。
何况是你。
no one unds how i feel.
heartache? who knows?!
not even you!

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.Saturday, February 21 ' 6:27 AM Y

whole fucking day at home aqain. woke up at 11 plus. watch tv lye down. have my breakfast-lunch at 2 plus 3 plus. LOLS. then online. then was like eating nutella at the same time. hahas! gonna make me so fat! but im just adidcted to it. ;D. and just cant stop myself from taking picture using the webcam. hahas. kisiao this few days. keep using webby to take picture. LOLS. so fucking boring can. heng got lynlyn pei me chat. why are both of us so sway. cant get our love ones by our side. when some bitches get their love ones. damn fucking dulan can. !@#$%^&*. cb. i swear i gonna get the one i love. no matter wad fuck thing happen.

and i was like thinking at the same time, im alr 17 years old. why just cant i have my freedom to qo as and when i like. and now, im being ban by you freaks from qoinq out. fuck hell sia. nb. and people was like telling me, "huh?! XinYi, you 17 le lehs! why still ban you sia." then my feeling will be like shitty shit sia. nb. even qo out with cousin also must kpkb. why dont you guys send me to prison suar. at else there got friends to talk to. i at home. ahbo watch or play com. really no life sia. its like, too bad, im not like your elder daughter, do wadever you guys said and guaiguai stay at home. TOO BAD. one day, i confirm run away from home. so DONT force me! >:C!

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.Friday, February 20 ' 7:45 AM Y

so gonna update. or else. i think my blog will rot for sure. umm. didnt really get enough sleep this few days! is like tired ars when webby with bryan. i can yawn more than 5 times lors. hahas! and i having flu and wad me and bryan called is "chicken flu". hehes. story behind it hahs. anyway, im feeling better alr. :DDDD.

school this few days, was alright. only today. after HFC class. me and cliques went to toilet to have a "break". then its like can you imagine, 6 person squeezing into one damn fucking small cabinet? lols! but was alright lars. have our smoking break and went to have lunch. after school have some practice on make up. and home sweet home in the afternoon. tired~
sleeping soon alr. CHAOS~

& Get Well Soon hahs, lynlyn.
dont combine those stuffs together aqain hahs. hahas! :DDDDD

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.Wednesday, February 18 ' 5:22 AM Y

starts school at 8.30 today. and i woke up at 7.30. LOLS! its like so late lars. omgosh! rush here and there. then cab to school. this week 2 days le. ==. cab to school! omgosh.

during the effective communication, was like doing the project. so fcuking dulan with tt com. really kns~ my really damn old com also can fight with school de com. so lag and slow lors. wth~ and here comes the problem, me and meilien can neither open the project with microsoft on our com. was like fcuk hell! wad the com wants aqain. cant open the project?! then was like telling the teacher and blahs stuffs, we manage to open it on another com. and after doing and blahs stuffs. we save it. and you know wad, we cant find the project neither in My Computer or My Document. was like !@#$%^&*. i was like dulan, just fcuking wanna bang the com lors. cb. then after fcuking search here and there. then found it. ass sia the com. Window 97 is like better than the com lors seriously. ==. AGGRRR.

then bus home. walking tt time. so HOT! ==. like will melt like tt. i was thinking, this type of sun damn suitable for suntaning. hahas! ;DDD. then reached home and got myself bath all this. and watched channel U, GONG- ye man wang fei. LOLS. watched till half way, while waiting for the advertisement to finish, i fall asleep sia. hahas. ==. how pathetic am i sia. hahas. :P

thats all. & im still very tired! xc

谁爱得太自由

谁过头太远了

谁要走我的心

谁忘了那就是承诺

谁自顾自地走

谁忘了看着我

谁让爱变沉重

谁忘了要给你温柔

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.Tuesday, February 17 ' 5:31 AM Y

AHHH! im boring! so took some pictures with my webby. :DDDD. currently studying! so sians~ lols. bryan say i look like i need it in this picture. stupid sia. wad a baijujing is him! ==. hahas. WHY IS LIFE SO FCUKING SIANS? :C.

TATA MONSTER ♥ LYNLYN MONSTER. ;DDD
*shyshy* hehes.

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.Monday, February 16 ' 3:48 AM Y

so tiring ~ school till 5. tomorrow will be till 6! ==.

and pearlyn was so late for school! scared me liao hell. cos we got EFC test in the afternoon. needa to memories and say out some things lors. which is kind of like acting? lols. but i think last minutes is always the best for me. :DDD. anyway, ken came to find me. lols. actually he wanna send me home de. but i still things to do. so nvr. so ps lors. make him come down just less than 5 minutes. hahas! but he say its alright. I FEEL SO GULITY! sorry hahs!

anyways, thats all.

wish you were the one,
standing outside,
waiting for me.
&
trying to find my way back to your heart.

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.Sunday, February 15 ' 5:06 AM Y

today whole fcuking day at home. cos im being ban from qoinq out alr. shit sia. -'-. at home is either eat, sleep, play com or watch tv. fcuk sia. like tt stay at home, confirm fat one lors. cb sia. knn. ==

afternoon chatted on the fone with ahyong. hahas. at least got him pei me chat. ahbo i will be sians like hell lars. :DDD. thanks hahs.

school tmr~ ==. I DONT WANT GO SCHOOL! i thought today is sat sia. i still surviving on the 14feb. which is the worst day i've ever spent. ==/. fcuk it. dont say alr. GUYS ARE ALL BASTARD LARS. CB KIA ONLY. ==/. fuck off then hahs!

why didnt you tell me.
say alr,
im always there for you right.
if you tell me where you,
i will confirm qo down find you one right.
so wad am i for?
i really wanna be there for you,
whenever you need me.
& not like yesterday.
i wanna be the first one to be there.
and not the last one.
i dont wish we just end like tt?
get it?
i cant survive without you!
unds mahs?
i think yesterday i've shown everyone tt,
i cant live without you!
maybe now,
you will find all this rubbish to you.
but this is how i feel. & i need you to know this.
tt i really love you lots.
more than you expected or wad.
thats all.

loved

.Saturday, February 14 ' 5:59 AM Y

Happy Valentine Day, guys! :DDDD

today went to work in the morning. its like, huh? still need to work? ==. hahas. nvr mind lars. at least i have something to do than rot at home. after work, went cityplaza with kellie to see see shop shop. went to play those kind machine tt can "diao" toys de. dont know wad fcuking machine called lars. hahas. got a chick (picture shown below) with just 2 trys. hehes. IM PRO KAY! then got my eyebrow trim. and tt girl draw till like chi-na girl. ==. so thick lors! gosh. then i have to qo toilet re-draw myself.

then bus down to bugis to walked and shop aqain. ==. leg so fcuking pain lors with tt new shoes. ==. whole morning till afternoon very fcuked up. really got no mood to shop. shop for necessary things only. even i saw hello kitty stuffs, i just looked and turn away. even my HELLO KITTY lehs. hais.

then bus to vivo to get my dinner. meet xiao pearl and her friend after tt. walked walked awhile. then lion saw me! he actually wanna called me one. but he say i walked too fast lors. hahas. i walked very fast mehs? okok lars. hahas. then took mrt. damn fcuking funny lars! me and pearlyn machiam like canot see each other de lors. we will do stupid things andlaugh like nobody business lors. hahas!

then went back to bedok to look for matthew. quite some time didnt see him liao. i think the last time we met is when gerald de stead birthday. hahas. LONG LARS. ==. went to his house bus-stop wait for him. he so slow lars. like girl like tt. hahas. went opposite his house, slack and chit-chat. :). and found out tt, we both have goals for our future! :DDDDD. cheers forour future hahs! :D. meet-up soon kay brother! and thanks for ya cig. :DDDDDDDD

picture of matthew and me :DDDDD.

anyway, i enjoy my valentine day with cliques. thanks ya! at least im not celebrating alone! Valentine day doesnt mean you need to celebrate with stead or wadever shit. can celebrated with friends too! :D. btw, i really envy those girls with roses on their hand. and pei fu those guys with roses on their hand when meeting their girl. they wont feel ps or wad. ENVY AHH!

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.Friday, February 13 ' 6:24 PM Y

who willingly to lend me their shoulder to lean for awhile?
just awhile.

im tired now~

spending valentine alone.
enjoy guys! :)

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.Thursday, February 12 ' 7:14 AM Y

finally,got the pictures post. :DDDDDD. not much. cos some i think is useless to post now.

having cross country today. at the beginning, i thought it would rain. but end up, hot like shit sia. me and cliques walked till halfway and we U-turn back to starting point. hahas! cos its like so hot and fucking long way to go lors. but meilien did run. & she got 3RD! so proud of her! :DD.

after tt, went tm to walked walked and have our breakfast-lunch at longjohn. spent alot today! brought 2 slippers from M)phonsis as its having crazy sales now, one mango tube and 2 cards for baby. :). spent alot alot today! AGGGGGRRRRR. so gonna kill myself for it.

home sweet home in the afternoon. :) & i haven study for my test tmr. *die* but nvrmind. tmr one not tt difficult. its about eyebrow shaping and dont know wad de. nvr mind! tmr morning then study bahs.

PICTURRRRRRREEEEEESSSSSSSSS~ :DDDDDDDDDD

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.Wednesday, February 11 ' 7:02 AM Y

didnt really get to sleep cause of the dog! and his name is shawn. funny right. LOLS. he was crying and barking the whole night. if keep quiet, he must be doing something. and is PEE-ING AND SHIT-TING. ==. made me so stress and fcuking cried this morning. and after school, really dont feel like qoinq home. hais. sad thing is he now at my cousin's house le. cause he too noisy alr, somemore my house got one witch keep nagging for nothing! wth lors~ nvr mind. anyway, shawn will find a better owner. this is fate. sometime it can be cruel. like now. after all, i missed shawn and cried.

anyway, went hougang to baibai this two days. the dinner and crossing the "ping an" bridge. and the god say me lors! and i really have to wake myself up! my mother really kind of worried for me. cant i just make her proud? fcuk myself!

sorry baby, pictures will be ost soon kay? when i have the time. miss you lots!

havig cross country tmr! all the best to me! :DDDDDDDD

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.Monday, February 9 ' 5:03 AM Y

went cityplaza with sweeties. brought two so called "dress". actually it can be 2-in-1 lars. hahas. shall went one of it during valentine. sister say look like seducing people! hahas! then at night, gambled, & win money aqain! how luck am i? so happy! must thanks my cousin! he is damn lucky can! :DDDDDD

anyway, school was boring can. anyway, got "Letter Of Undertaking" letter from Ms Tay, for being late last friday. fcuk it sia. nbcb. but me and pearlyn just went kisiao during effective communication. :DDD. didnt know why. out of sudden, i can just laugh and laugh. when i went home, like now, i can be another person.

have the urge to sms you.
but in the end,
i cancel it.
sorry for being cold
& not listening to your call and replying your message
out of sudden.
i just wanna be alone for awhile.
i'll be back to be me later.

loved

.Sunday, February 8 ' 7:19 AM Y

i'll post more tmr as i'm having terrible gastric pain now. sorry peeps. :C.

more pictures to be post.
so, STAY TUNE. :D

loved

.Friday, February 6 ' 8:21 AM Y

chinese new year ending soon.....

as for we "kids", it will be AWWWWWWWWWW... ending liao. then maybe for the adults, it could be, YEAHHHHH. finally. hahas! kind of sians lors. but dont know why this year, i so heng. keep win money. but got win can liao. dont wanna ask for much of it. cant be greedy!

family dinner today. :). lots of fun. but my appearances and blah blah blah sucks. cos i just wake up and nvr doll-up. fucking sucks. so no pictures of me taken. :DDDDD. anyway, just wanna say, school sucks. :D.

baby went malaysia today. actually he is staying there at his relative house and will be back tmr morning. but he is back today! yeah! just got a call from him. so happy lars! & wanna say sorry baby for thinking too much. and we promise each other to be a good baby kay? love you! (L)

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.Thursday, February 5 ' 6:42 AM Y

IM SO ALMOST FCUKING LATE FOR TODAY'S CLASS. i woke up at 8 when i having lesson at 9! rushed here and there. and then cab down. and blah blah blah. after school, outing to bugis today with cliques. :DDDDD. then kellie came to find me, then went to city plaza to see some stuffs. then decided to qo vivo. shop shop and went to plaza sing for valentine presents. kellie brought some things at couple lab. well for me, i didnt buy any stuffs. as he cant confirm with me somethings. and without those infos, i cant get the present done. if i could, i need to pass them the pictures last-est on tue sia, in order to get my present on the 13th or 14th feb lors. then i was like, nevermind, forget it!~. try to find other stuffs. wad to buy? any suggestions?

anyway, am i thinking too much or wad? i dont know. i feel insecure now! everynight, before i get to bed, will be thinking over and over aqain. did i fall too deep? but i dont want to. i dont wanna to get hurt once more. why am i feeling this way? i dont know. out of sudden, i can just like tt cry even right now. idontfcukingknowadhappentome ! ihatethisfeeling !

baby, thanks for the morning call this few days. i think now, you're sleeping aqain hahs. confirm is fall asleep aqain. ==. nevermind. i also resting soon. Nights & sweet dreams.

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.Tuesday, February 3 ' 8:31 AM Y

malaysia trip. :)

the purpose of going to malaysia is to get angbao from the relatives there and to attend a wedding dinner there. overall, i think the trip is very tiring. lols. it seems like i always get tired easily. :PPP. but no matter how long i sleep, it just aint enough lors. but i got to say is tt, the organisation and management for the wedding dinner sucks can. lols. can say worse than 1 star hotel in singapore.

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.Monday, February 2 ' 8:52 AM Y

fcuk! i having sore eyes for 3 pathetic days! cb sia. ==. plus today got sudden headache. cbcbcbcb!!!! sorry baby, let you worry liao. & sorry, shall blog abt the malaysia trip when i have the MOOD. dont really have mood this few days. kinda get frustrated easily. but dont worry, i wont show my frustration on anyone. :). shall keep it to myself. anyway, this few days went down to mummy's new coffee shop. & today having dinner outside with family members. more pictures to be shown when im in the mood. :) NIGHTS.

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.Sunday, February 1 ' 7:28 AM Y

i got this from one of the friendster's bulletin. i think this is what a true boyfriend will do. umm. anyway, ENJOY! :)
-

When she walks away from you mad - [Follow her]

When she stare's at your lips - [Kiss her]

When she pushes you or hit's you - [Grab her and don’t let go]

When she start's cursing at you - [Kiss her and tell her you love her]

When she's quiet - [Ask her what’s wrong]

When she ignore's you - [Give her your attention]

When she pulls away - [Pull her back]

When you see her at her worst - [Tell her she's beautiful]

When you see her start crying - [Just hold her and don’t say a word]

When you see her walking - [Sneak up and hug her waist from behind]

When she's scared - [Protect her]

When she lay's her head on your shoulder - [Tilt her head up and kiss her]

When she steal's your favorite hat - [Let her keep it and sleep with it for a

night]

When she tease's you - [Tease her back and make her laugh]

When she doesn’t answer for a long time - [reassure her that everything is okay]

When she looks at you with doubt - [Back yourself up with the TRUTH]

When she say's that she like's you - [she really does more than you could

understand]

When she grab's at your hands - [Hold her's and play with her fingers]

When she bump's into you - [bump into her back and make her laugh]

When she tells you a secret - [keep it safe and untold]

When she looks at you in your eyes - [don’t look away until she does]

WHEN SHE MISSES YOU - [SHES HURTING INSIDE]

When you break her heart - [the pain NEVER really goes away]

When she says its over - [she STILL wants you to be hers]

When she repost this bulletin - [she wants you to read it]

- Stay on the phone with her even if she’s not saying anything

- DON'T let her have the last word

- NEVER call her hot! Pretty and beautiful is soo much better

- Say you love her more than she could ever love you

- Argue that she is the best girl ever

- WHen she's mad hug her tight and don't let go

- When she says she's ok don’t believe it, talk with her

- When she says she's sorry, she truly means it

- Because 10 yrs later she'll remember you

- Call her at 12:00am on her birthday to tell her you love her

- Call her before you sleep and after you wake up

- Treat her like she's all that matters to you

- Tease her and let her tease you back

- Stay up all night with her when she's sick

- Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think its stupid

- Give her the world

- Let her wear your clothes

- When she's bored and sad, hang out with her

- Let her know she's important

- Kiss her in the pouring rain

&& When she runs up at you crying, the first thing you say is; "Who's ass am I kicking today baby?"

shall post abt my trip tmr. kinda tired. :)

baby,
hope you're the one for me.

♥

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